Too Much at Stake

After a fantastic conversation and a phone call from my childhood best friend, I remembered a few things. One, I’m making excuses about why I haven’t been working out. Two, I have too much at stake to stumble now.

Let’s go back to One. I haven’t worked out since June 16th. I’ve gone to two or three yoga classes, but really, for the last two weeks I haven’t done squats…or squat. I’ve blamed it on a change in schedule, on a lack of time, on an inability to wake up any earlier than I already do, and on the weather.

Well, y’all, I’m calling bull on myself. I have the time to get up earlier, go to bed earlier, and make this workout routine work. The truth is that I just haven’t wanted to do it. But, reaching a size 12 didn’t happen because I didn’t want to get up for the last five months, it happened because I did it anyway, especially when I didn’t want to.

Two, I have too much at stake to stumble now. My long term goals are starting to creep into the picture. In a little over a month and a half, I will be a bridesmaid in my brother-from-another-mother’s marriage and I am purchasing a dress that’s NOT a 16/18, but a 12/14! The very next week I will take my first jog in Central Park. In five months, I will see my family and friends back home for the first time since I started losing weight, one year and (hopefully) eighty pounds lighter! And in one year, I will be driving across country to hike in the Grand Canyon, to visit California, and to wear my first two piece.

So am I going to let some crazy summer schedule screw that up? How about a non-rhetorical question: how am I going to get back to it?

I hate using bribery on my students, but sometimes it just plain works. “Okay, class. Whoever puts the most detail and description into their story today gets a prize.” It works, and the same can be said for adults. I’ve already been rewarding myself for reaching my ten pound goals. What did I get for reaching 40 lbs. and a size 12? A new pair of pants, and damn it feels good to have purchased them, and to brag about the size when I wear them.

So, for every day I get up and workout in the morning, I’m going to set aside two dollars for my Summer 2013 Road Trip. At the end of the month, I’m transferring it to my savings account. Here’s my formula:

  • $2 – a full workout, which includes yoga, 3+ miles walk, or 15 min. jog + 20 min. cardio.
  • $1 – a 20 min. circuit or cardio workout, 1-2 miles in the park, etc.
  • $5 – a Two-a-Day of two full workouts.

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I don’t motivate myself enough sometimes. It’s hard to remember that I’m getting anywhere when I look in the mirror. I look the same every day, and sometimes I feel like I’m not getting anywhere. I know it’s days like that–days like today when I’ve jumped back up from 191.6 to 195.2–that I have to remind myself of how far I’ve come. I have to remember that this is not an over night journey. I did a lot of heavy damage to my body for the last 28 years, but for the last five months, I have been doing some serious good, putting good healthy vegetables, juices, and fruit into my body, teaching my muscles how to stretch and work, and helping my body get back to healthy. It’s days like today that I have to take a deep breath, remind myself that I’m doing good work, and that I can get up tomorrow and work out, that I can make a difference with this body of mine.

Looking at old and new photos doesn’t hurt, either.

I’ve noticed with the lack of working out has also come a lack of my normal weight-loss documentation. Before, I would get up, work out, then log my weight and work out in a journal. I also kept track of my weight loss progress and my food logs on I’ve kept up with the food logs, but have totally dropped the workout/weight logs. Today I’m spending some time getting together some fun new work outs and a new work out log, and am spending my yoga class this evening focusing on rededicating myself to this journey. This journey is for no one else but myself, my health, and my happiness.

I’m also going to take Sunday evenings to making my weekly plan, slight variations on my workouts to keep them fun, rotating, and effective. Here’s my general routine:

  • Mon., Weds., Fri.: 15-20 min. cardio + 25 min. strength training, circuits, etc.
  • Tues., Thurs.: 3+ miles walking
  • Sat., Sun.: Yoga

I’m looking forward to getting back on track and meeting my 80 lbs. goal by Christmas. Have you stumbled in your weight loss journey? How have you gotten back on track?

2 thoughts on “Too Much at Stake

  1. jo says:

    Sarah, I can’t believe how different you look today in comparison with these photos from the wedding (and these were photos marked major progress milestones!). It’s incredible. Don’t be discouraged with a “plateau,” but know that your transformation is encouraging as hell to others.

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